fear {five minute Friday}

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I never really thought of myself as a fearful person. Of course I had the fear of the dark as a child, and I admit that even today, I walk really fast if I am in a dark room.

But as a grown woman, lover of God and of all He tells me I am in Him, I don’t consider myself to be in fear.

I know all the verses and can whip them out like band-aids with the best of them.

But pondering this word today – I realize that I do fear.

I may use another word that sounds better – like ponder, or question, or I wonder – but I think it might actually come down to fear.

Fear of: am I doing the right thing, at the right time,

Fear of: will the ministry’s lease and bills get paid this month

Fear of: am I possibly drinking too much coffee

Fear of: am I hearing God correctly

Fear of: being fearful

What I am seeing is that sometime we cover fear with questions and then call it something else – like …’I’m just asking’ but isn’t it really based in the reality that comes from fear?

Fear of: failing       fear

Fear of: losing

So I am thinking that again today – I am going to choose to hand over the questions, the outcomes, the ‘fear of’ and picking up peace, and probably more coffee

But really coming to terms that just because I can quote a bible verse, doesn’t mean that fear doesn’t exist, it’s what I do when I realize the root of the question and where it stems from.

After writing this, I am feeling less fear and more hope – I am not except from fear, I just have something bigger than my fear to lean on, trust in and rely on.

 

 

 

what seed are you eating ?

you have to change the inside to see results on the outside –

One Day Legacy

I have been dieting my entire life. Today the scale did not lie. It showed my over indulgence or addiction to cakes, pies and desserts.

So I hit the pavement again this morning, pondering the book I just read by my friend Joyce Tilney called “Why Diets don’t work – food is not the problem”   ( http://www.whydiets.com/ ) and I was hit with a revelation that I want to share with you. Take it,  join with me or laugh and leave it.    book-cover-front-e1359421292739

It’s not what food we eliminate or take away from ourselves, it’s about the food we DO eat and put into our body. When we focus on what we cannot eat, we enter into a poverty/diet mindset. And you will always want what you cannot have – look at the Israelites – didn’t they crave the ‘choice food’ from Egypt, but God had a super food for them in…

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Summer in the Psalms

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This is your personal invitation. (And your invitation to invite others!)

I am inviting you to join me and many others as we take the month of July and devote our time to reading the entire book of Psalms and Proverbs.

Did you know that if you read 5 Psalms each and every day, in one month you would have read the complete book of Psalms ? add 1 chapter of proverbs and you will have completed 2 books of the bible in 1 month !

Billy Graham once said that reading Psalms teaches us how to talk to God, and Proverbs is God talking back to us.

Psalms teaches us how to worship, how to expand our prayer language and get an understanding of what a prayer life could look like.

Each day you read 5 psalms – that is five complete ‘chapters’ – so for day 1 – beginning July 1st,  you would read Psalm 1, 2, 3, 4, 5.. and Proverbs 1, then on day 2 you would be continuing with psalm 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 and Proverbs 2

then you post or comment on page what God is showing you, what you are learning, what character or attribute of God did you see.  You can also join me on Facebook and invite others to join !

https://www.facebook.com/events/357805107748778/

I will also be posting what I am learning and what Character traits I am learning about of my Father God.  Use the #summerinthepsalms  and you can post pictures and ideas for others – you can also share with me on my instagram account ( I think it is on the side of the blog to connect with me on social media )

Get ready !

Pick your translation of the bible you want to ready !

Have colored pencils ready to color the words or phrases that captures your heart.

I am so excited to hear what God is speaking to you !

 

 

gift. {five minute Friday}

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Gifts are awesome ! Who doesn’t like getting a gift ? One of my favorite gifts to receive is probably an amazon gift card…its the gift that keeps giving ! Plus I love to read, so it is perfect for me. Or coffee mugs and coffee. It is my addiction.

But, I really love giving gifts.

For me, it is sometime easier to give a gift than to receive a gift.

When someone gives me a gift, I can almost act like it isn’t a good gift, because I just don’t know how to receive gifts. Or I get nervous and start my nervous talking – PLEASE someone stop me !!

Anyone else like that ?

I want gifts.

But they are so hard for me to receive !

I wonder if that is how God feels?

He keeps giving us gifts and we keep piling them up, not using them or really thanking Him for giving them. Are we afraid of His gifts ?  Or just to busy to even acknowledge them ?

Think about it. We are breathing today. That is a gift – did you thank Him for it?

You are loved, you are accepted, you are chosen – did you thank Him for that ?

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Look at this picture – ‘the manner in which it is given is worth more than the gift’ – how powerful is that?

Maybe our response is wrong ?

What if every gift that came to us everyday from God, was acknowledged with thanks, praise and wonder – that the gift itself wasn’t the focus. But the giver was !

What if we didn’t focus on the gifts but the giver ?

The manner is which God gives us these gifts are free but yet so costly

and we should be thankful and in awe

So today – unwrap the gift He is giving you – and thank Him for it.

and if you happen to send me a gift – I will gladly thank you and receive it !

 

what seed are you eating ?

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I have been dieting my entire life. Today the scale did not lie. It showed my over indulgence or addiction to cakes, pies and desserts.

So I hit the pavement again this morning, pondering the book I just read by my friend Joyce Tilney called “Why Diets don’t work – food is not the problem”   ( http://www.whydiets.com/ ) and I was hit with a revelation that I want to share with you. Take it,  join with me or laugh and leave it.    book-cover-front-e1359421292739

It’s not what food we eliminate or take away from ourselves, it’s about the food we DO eat and put into our body. When we focus on what we cannot eat, we enter into a poverty/diet mindset. And you will always want what you cannot have – look at the Israelites – didn’t they crave the ‘choice food’ from Egypt, but God had a super food for them in the desert.

I heard God tell me it was all about the seed. What seed are you putting into your body ? Is this seed going to produce a good fruit in you ? Is this seed going to produce 30, 60 or 100 fold of good fruit in your body. You see, this is a Godly principal, not just a financial principal. So what seed I put into my body will produce that fruit. So if I am putting the seed of sugary sweets, it will produce the effects of that seed.

If I put good seed in, I will produce good fruit.

Hmm..

So do you see what I am thinking, learning and hearing ?

It isn’t about a diet, (and I highly recommend Joyce’s book – it is filled with powerful words from the WORD ) it’s about seed.

What seed are you eating ?

what seed are you producing ?

It isn’t about taking away, it’s about putting in. Putting in the good seeds of food into our body.

Maybe you want to join me ?

I am willing to go through Joyce’s book with you and deal with what seed we are struggling with – to have a physically and spiritually healthy body –

I would love to hear your thoughts and if you want to join me !

 

Rise. {five minute Friday}

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when you hear the word rise, what comes to your mind?

rise up. rise again. the sun rises. rise above it.     summer-morning-sun-rise

that last one really hits me.

rise above it.

I feel like it is time that we as the body of Christ rise above it.

rise above what ?

life ? situations ? judging ?

how about rise into ?

the sun rises each and every day – no matter what. after every battle, every storm, every attack. the sun continues to amaze us each and every morning and it rises into the sky and brings hope, healing and light.

what if we did that ?

what if each morning we would rise into – the things of God ?

what if we would rise above the raff that we find ourselves in ?

what does that look like ?

for me it looks like going lower. lower into the word, lower on my knees, lower on my agenda.

the word tells us that humble ourselves, that He would raise us up – He would lift us – He would cause us to rise.

is it possible that so many of us are tying to race to be the on the highest rise that we are missing the whole point ?

my prayer for you this morning is that you would rise into the depths of God –

rise into your bible

rise into your prayer life

rise into your compassion for others

rise into the very Son that has already risen.

 

hide. {five minute friday}

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I want to hide. Especially today. Have you ever had those days ?

My daughter is throwing up and as I was cleaning it up (oh God) I wanted to hide somewhere. So I went back to bed and hid under the covers and prayed to not throw up.

I have so many things to do, but just want to hide in my coffee cup. Really, I want to dive right in that brown glorious liquid.

I feel friendships changing, for the better and for the worse and it makes me want to hide to not face the challenges of either.

I definitely want to hide from the dirty ceiling fans. The dishes. The un-swept carpet and un-made beds.

I want to hide from those things that I know I should do, but just don’t want to do.

hideBut we can’t hide.

There is nowhere to go !

Really, where can we ever go that is really hidden.

Yet that very thought gives me hope in my very worn out soul.

I can go no where from His presence that He isn’t there. He tells me that even my darkness is light to Him.

Even in these moments where I think my inner most thoughts are hidden, He knows. And He loves me in spite of it all

Hide means to put out of sight and to try to conceal something from others sight, but with our God, there is never a time that anything is hidden.

We are literally hidden in plain sight.

But this is a good thing. We have a God who loves us beyond our comprehension. So even in these moments where things make me feel like hiding, I can hide in His arms.

His arms are the hidden treasure.

proverbs 3+1=4 / 2 = 2 – 1 = 1

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it really just comes down to 1.  in any relationship or marriage or parenting, it really comes down to 1. one person.

in any relationship that I am in, I am always responsible for the 1. me. but to the ONE, Him.

even in my marriage – I can’t have a vibrant marriage if I am always neglecting me.

now before all the haters throw hate. let me explain.

I have been reading and hear so much about the proverbs 31 woman. how each of us a women, wives, mothers and friends are to esteem to become this women from  proverbs 31. she has been called the perfect woman, that we are all to try to be.

So we have seminars and books on how to be the perfect proverbs 31 woman, with lists and logic on how to be this ideal wife, mom, woman –

but I can’t. even on a good day. I cannot be her.

It is not in my DNA to be perfect.

as I was reading yet another book for women, and how we can be happy and  serve our husbands to even more happiness by serving him his favorite meal, I really just started to laugh. when I asked my hubs what his favorite meal was his response was – ‘whatever you cook that I like’  – well that narrowed it down.

I really failed in the cleaning department. in fact every time I do some type of cleaning I hear my self quote – “she does her house well’ – what does that even mean ?

Is my house worried about not being cleaned ? are my carpets crying out to be swept ?

in fact my husband laughed as I was telling him all the things I am to do as a proverbs 31 wife and he said, I just want you to be you…and if you kiss me like you mean it – even better.

so why am I writing this?

well, I am in my 40’s and I am seeing this surge again like I did when I first got married to be this perfect wife – submissive, quiet, meek, cooks, cleans, dresses like a gap model, never trips, spills or swears.

so, what do you do if you are the opposite of that ?proverbs 31 woman

I would rather spend hours in my bible then in the kitchen.

I would rather meet for coffee then make sure the socks are color coded.

in order for submission to work, I have to know the mission. what is the mission of our marriage ?

and really should each of us be in the same mission, to love God fully and to love others intentionally ?

so in the 1 it comes down to, is me, but me and THE ONE – Him –

I am under His mission ?

am I loving

am I seeking

I am responsible for me, and my relationship with God first – not with the proverbs 31 women. (and here is a secret – she never existed )

I must be the me that He created me to be – and to live that me out to the fullest that He gave me freedom to be –

Proverbs 31 isn’t about how to be a perfect woman – it’s about living a life focused on the 1 who is

I think if we focused  more on Him than the on how to fold and organize the laundry we would be that woman of strength –

why? because it’s His strength anyway !

If we focus on Jesus and the Living Word, then our words would be filled with wisdom and faithful instruction because it would be in our hearts – not just posters on the fridge to mock us

so be free my friends to find the woman that God created you to be –

 

 

 

A Dream of Brilliance

I hope you dream

One Day Legacy

I had this dream. Or maybe it was a vision since I wasn’t sleeping. I was in the presence of worship. Brian and I went to a house church in the city and in worship there was this moment between singing beautiful one and sovereign one where I was taken to a different realm.

I could hear the singing but I began to see something spectacular.

I was filled with this sense of color. Bright rays of colors that were incredibly vibrant yet see through.

Just one after the other of burst upon burst, all while hearing  – beautiful – sovereign

The reds were reds but they were crystal looking. See through and solid at the same time.

Blues so vibrant it took my breath away. Like crystal but solidly blue.

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All the colors were together yet each one was separate.

I can’t even draw or write clearly or adequately…

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